i never really understand SPEED - White Love that song... only understand part of it... and i went to search for the translation just now... my heart just melt....
Take me to the other side of the endless clouds
Don’t let go of my hand

This white love that’s fallen from a midwinter constellation
Builds up in my chest, penetrates my heart and turns to tears
Every time we call each other by different names to our friends
We can get stronger
Even if we’re apart, we’re always one

Hold me more, properly, always
On nights when you don’t call I pretend to be strong
But the truth is I miss you

Like the light of the stars that go on forever
I want to cover you with the love that fills my heart
Our encounter is like a gift from the angels
Will fly through the air and keep sparkling forever

The illumination
Blurs in the window fogged up by my white sighs
The happier I am, the more tomorrow makes me tearful with anxiety
Even my new notebook
Is full of your initials
It’s because there’s the promise of next time that I can go on living

When the snow melts and spring eventually comes
I want to feel as much at ease with you
As the sun that leaks through the trees

Like the lives of the stars that go on forever
I’ll keep loving you forever even when I feel like giving up
I hope the happiness we have now
Won’t melt someday like the fleeting snow

”I love you…hold me…”

Take me to the other side of the endless clouds
Don’t let go of my hand

Our encounter, a gift from the angels
Isn’t a miracle
The gods are watching over our newly born love
I’ll always treasure you
I want to live for you

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i was your world..
the planet that you used to breathe in..
your eden, your comfort, your joy..
resources depleted..
i forced you to leave me..
you deserved something better..

now that you found your new shelter,
the path back to my world is sealed...
i am just like pluto,
chunk at the end of the solar system...
neglected, frozen, lonely, forgotten...
a familiar territory became so foreign..

i shall sleep in darkness,
till the sun draws nearer to me again..
i guess it will never happen...
strike me with a meteor,
combust into dust,
shall never exist again...

shattered universe by erubin

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everyday i woke up with morning dew on my eyes,
my vision is blurred,
tears became the additional cornea..
the protective layer will soon roll down...
reaches my heart,
is that my medication for the heart broken wound?
or is it causing more pain by corroding it?

alcohol took me away from reality,
spurt out the truth that i love you.
alcohol intoxicated my blood,
serve as an analgesic drug,
but my heart keep pumping the pain.
not even liquid nitrogen can numb it.

i cant sleep,
i will have nightmare.
i cant wake up,
i will face reality again.
euthanise me,
stop this ambivalent situation.

Inevitable Pain - Erubin