i decided to create this blog for you... after my exam i gonna have a book with me... to write down anything about us...

i hope u are not shock or feel guilty or feel sad about my current state..... u may know that i am crying every now n then... but i chose the decision n i deserve it... i am perfectly fine... well not perfectly but i am fine... pls do not worry abt me....

i went to short circuit just now to watch some local short films... i really love that korean short film... a familiar situation that i am in now... the korean song that the actress sang... i just couldnt hold back my tears.... the lyrics goes.... "my tears flow just like how the time move endlessly...." the film maker did it for her relationship with her ex-gf... how i wish i can make a film abt us.... 

this blog i will show my close friends... if i ever lose my memories for whatever reasons.... i hope my friends will all bring me back to here...

in the film... the girl said... i couldnt give u anything but pain... that's why i chose to leave u... baby... before the break up... it was really very painful for me to see u... i was at a lost state... darkness is everywhere... i felt i couldnt guide u to happiness... i am sure i broke your heart... i broke my heart too... 

like the song, sometimes when we touch.... "i rather hurt u honestly than mislead u with a lie..."

i am reaching for that familiar hand of yours....

but you are already holding someone else's hand...

i know you are caught in a cross road....

no matter what, i will wait for u at the end or the road...

it may be a short cut to me, a long winding road or you may not even reach me....

i just want you to know i will be waiting for you...

holding not just one but both your hands...

the duration of the wait is unknown....

only time will tell...

but i decided to wait for you happily rather than painfully....

while waiting... i will decorate the place around me and wait....

playing love songs that fit into our situation...

i need to learn... learn how to love you more...

it may be a very powerful word but i can really say....

i have developed an unconditional love for you..

a love that will love u unconditionally...

i will write more soon... 

PS: i miss hugging you to sleep at nite... hearing you calling me gou gou... and i call u niao niao... snoopy and woodstock is a pair... cant be separated... snoopy is longing for woodstock return... i love you, m...