i didnt purposely create that scene that nite... i just couldnt hold my tears back... we just sat like as if we are total strangers... we used to talk to each other so much... u were my best friend... now... our status is blurred... i hope u will seriously read thru all my letters for you and think abt it n have a honest talk with me... the talk will inevitably change everything now... we must be prepare for whatever it turns out to be.... 

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i was your world..
the planet that you used to breathe in..
your eden, your comfort, your joy..
resources depleted..
i forced you to leave me..
you deserved something better..

now that you found your new shelter,
the path back to my world is sealed...
i am just like pluto,
chunk at the end of the solar system...
neglected, frozen, lonely, forgotten...
a familiar territory became so foreign..

i shall sleep in darkness,
till the sun draws nearer to me again..
i guess it will never happen...
strike me with a meteor,
combust into dust,
shall never exist again...

shattered universe by erubin

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everyday i woke up with morning dew on my eyes,
my vision is blurred,
tears became the additional cornea..
the protective layer will soon roll down...
reaches my heart,
is that my medication for the heart broken wound?
or is it causing more pain by corroding it?

alcohol took me away from reality,
spurt out the truth that i love you.
alcohol intoxicated my blood,
serve as an analgesic drug,
but my heart keep pumping the pain.
not even liquid nitrogen can numb it.

i cant sleep,
i will have nightmare.
i cant wake up,
i will face reality again.
euthanise me,
stop this ambivalent situation.

Inevitable Pain - Erubin