its 3weeks... i was counting... i felt kinda relieved to see ur sms again... i wish i can sms u all the time again... but i cant... cuz u dun allow me to... i miss u so bad... and i think i cant fall in love again... if i could fall in love again... it's gonna be you and no one else...

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i was your world..
the planet that you used to breathe in..
your eden, your comfort, your joy..
resources depleted..
i forced you to leave me..
you deserved something better..

now that you found your new shelter,
the path back to my world is sealed...
i am just like pluto,
chunk at the end of the solar system...
neglected, frozen, lonely, forgotten...
a familiar territory became so foreign..

i shall sleep in darkness,
till the sun draws nearer to me again..
i guess it will never happen...
strike me with a meteor,
combust into dust,
shall never exist again...

shattered universe by erubin

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everyday i woke up with morning dew on my eyes,
my vision is blurred,
tears became the additional cornea..
the protective layer will soon roll down...
reaches my heart,
is that my medication for the heart broken wound?
or is it causing more pain by corroding it?

alcohol took me away from reality,
spurt out the truth that i love you.
alcohol intoxicated my blood,
serve as an analgesic drug,
but my heart keep pumping the pain.
not even liquid nitrogen can numb it.

i cant sleep,
i will have nightmare.
i cant wake up,
i will face reality again.
euthanise me,
stop this ambivalent situation.

Inevitable Pain - Erubin