i had so much that i wanna say to u... but i always think that u will just get more irritated by me.... u truly is the one that make me very happy.... then again.... that day someone told me i just need someone else to sweep me off my feet to really move on... i really dunnno... i just hope u will still miss me once in a while like how i do... maybe 50yrs later we will get back tgt... haha... in another dimension....

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i was your world..
the planet that you used to breathe in..
your eden, your comfort, your joy..
resources depleted..
i forced you to leave me..
you deserved something better..

now that you found your new shelter,
the path back to my world is sealed...
i am just like pluto,
chunk at the end of the solar system...
neglected, frozen, lonely, forgotten...
a familiar territory became so foreign..

i shall sleep in darkness,
till the sun draws nearer to me again..
i guess it will never happen...
strike me with a meteor,
combust into dust,
shall never exist again...

shattered universe by erubin

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everyday i woke up with morning dew on my eyes,
my vision is blurred,
tears became the additional cornea..
the protective layer will soon roll down...
reaches my heart,
is that my medication for the heart broken wound?
or is it causing more pain by corroding it?

alcohol took me away from reality,
spurt out the truth that i love you.
alcohol intoxicated my blood,
serve as an analgesic drug,
but my heart keep pumping the pain.
not even liquid nitrogen can numb it.

i cant sleep,
i will have nightmare.
i cant wake up,
i will face reality again.
euthanise me,
stop this ambivalent situation.

Inevitable Pain - Erubin